And anything to make you smile...

I have always loved this song, but at the moment it couldn't be more relevant. 

Apologies for how depressing all my blog entries are recently. 

'It's looking like a limb torn off
Or altogether just taken apart
We're reeling through an endless fall
We are the ever-living ghost of what once was

But no one is ever gonna love you more than I do
No one's gonna love you more than I do

And anything to make you smile
It is my better side of you to admire
But they should never take so long
Just to be over then back to another one

And no one is ever gonna love you more than I do
No one's gonna love you more than I do'

Aha

The pursuit of happiness

So things have been pretty tough lately, it has been over a month now since me and Josh broke up, but things don't seem to have gotten any easier. I suppose that is aloud after being with someone for three years.

So the title of this post isn't the film, it is about my pursuit of happiness; whether that means becoming okay and not as upset anymore, becoming just friends with the boy that was once the center of my world and my best friend, or me and josh finding each other again.

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Getting used to my fringe now, and I am even considering keeping it, even though it is a pain in the arse.

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It was my lovely friend Kara's birthday the other day, and we celebrated it by getting very drunk.

Bon Iver tickets

Got my ticket to go and see Bon Iver on their small UK tour in November. I am so so excited to be seeing them for the second time as they are my favorite band in the world.

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My face has a weird shine on it, but oh well, this is my new black aran jumper, knitted by my lovely grandma (Nanny). She also attached a cute little gold broach on to the neck which I love. This would have cost me a lot of money in any shop, well done Nanny, you are the best.

However, it is the middle of June and I am wearing a jumper, this is not right!

Presents

I forgot to mention what I got this year. I have had some amazing presents and I got a lot of stuff I asked for ages ago and forgot all about and there they were, amazing!
I got...
A navy blue American Apparel maxi skirt
A white pleated scallop crop top
A light yellow knitted top
A Ted Baker floral scarf
An amazing Sony Ipod dock, which makes everything sound amazing.
A little gold watch with a black strap
Lots of lovely rings
Two necklaces
Three picture frames
A hand knitted black aran jumper (thankyou Nanny)
A lovely wooden sign I can put in my room
A broach
£50 overall
A happy birthday balloon
A Colin the caterpillar cake
and lots of beautiful cards

Overall, everything was beautiful, and I am so so grateful to everyone who made this weird birthday, so amazing. I took a few photos of my watch, kitted yellow top, Ted Baker scarf and one of my necklaces

My 20th Birthday, the silver lining to a very grey cloud

I haven't blogged in a very long time yet again, I am really loosing the plot with it! I suppose the main reason is because me and my boyfriend of three years broke up on the 23rd May, which is still now horrible and upsetting. However, on a lighter note, it was my 20th birthday yesterday, and it made me realise how incredible my friends and family are. I had such an amazing night out on the 9th, and I got so many drinks bought for me, and was basically treated like a princess, to make sure I wasn't sad. Then yesterday on my actual birthday the sun decided to come out to play and me and my mum, dad, sister, her fiancee, my grandma and her partner went for the most beautiful meal, and then for drinks. I spent the whole day in the sunshine in my new clothes and it has made everything so much more bearable.