If only my life was in black and white...

Bad luck

Over the last few weeks my flatmates and I have had to worst luck and a lot of horrible and sad things have happened all in one go. It is sad to hurt inside and not be able to do anything about it, and also very hard to watch some one go through pain and have no way of saving them from sadness and heartache. Saying the right thing to some one who is upset is impossible, instead most of the time you give them a hug or two or three, a tissue to dry their eyes, and try your best to be there for them when ever you can.

Luckily for me, my bad luck spell seemed to end when we found my beautiful cat Sadie, who had been trapped in a families garage for two weeks while they were on holiday. She is very thin and quite ill, but is back at home and on the road to recovery, I feel like the luckiest girl in the world. My friend Aimee was amazing and bought me some beautiful roses which I have shockingly managed to keep alive, I think it is a sign.

 I think one thing I have taken from the past weeks is that, no matter what life throws at you, the people around you help you in ways they can't even imagine. Everyone thinks that by being there and saying things, they are just making it worse, but I feel like even them just being there is the best they could possibly do you for you. A simple text from friends or a call or even asking if you are okay, makes you feel a little less alone in your pain.

I think I spoke too soon when I said that everything was going okay in my life for once.
My beautiful cat Sadie, who I run up to every time I see her and give her a big fuss and a hug, has been missing now for almost 10 days now. No hope from the RSPCA, or the vets, or the people who clear away cats from the side of roads and read their chips to find out who the owners are.

All we can hope now is that some one is feeding her or something and with a little luck they will see the posters, or see her and bring her home.
I can't even imagine going home and her not being there, every time I ring my mum she is in floods of tears. Sadie may 'just be a cat', but she was family, and we got her about 3 years ago when my dad was poorly, Sadie made things a little happier in our lives and I pray that she isn't taken away.

Nelly

Did you know an elephant can die of a broken heart? I think this is one of the many reasons I love elephants so much. One day I want to go and see lots of elephants on a safari, where they are out in the wild and we have to search to find them because they are having such an amazing time being free. 

'When I grow up, I want to live near the sea

Crab claws and bottles of rum

That’s what i’ll have staring at the seashell

Waiting for it to embrace me

I put my soul in what I do

Last night I drew a funny man

with dark eyes and a hanging tongue

It goes way bad, I never liked a sad look

From someone who wants to be loved by you'

I can not get enough of discovering and listening to new songs, my Ipod is very happy at the moment. 

Over and out.

Toro Y Moi

'There was a finer life when I was with my friends
And I could always see my family
That's what I still want now
Even if I'm here and I know they won't be waiting'

Wedding plans!

Oh and also, I had a one and a half hour long chat with my sister on skype tonight, and her wedding plans are making so so excited. Bring on my beautiful big sister and Chris' wedding!

Alton towers

Last weekend included a very spooky trip to Alton towers with Josh and his friends from home. It was a special scarefest night, and the park opened till 9pm. 

Our journey began at 7:45am (far too early for me) as we got the bus to Josh's friend's house and began the journey to Alton towers. We went on as many rides possible and managed to stay at Alton towers for a record 12 hours (for me anyway). Going on Oblivion in the pitch black was a highlight for me. Alton towers also pulled out all the stops and actually terrified me in one of the spooky tower rides. Never been so scared in my life.

Other than that, my days have been fairly boring, it was amazing seeing Josh at the weekend. However, my lovely cat Sadie has gone missing which has made me sad. 

If you see this cat around let me know...

Uni work is already piling up, and I am already using every excuse in the book to procrastinate from doing it. A trip to meadow hall on Saturday, for some window shopping and crispy creams will sort me out.

This week has been a very busy one, but the main thing that happened to me, took place on Monday morning. Jen, my lovely friend, asked me to do some modelling for her photography project and I accepted, which meant seeing a time of day I wouldn't normally on my day off, 7am!

It was so fun playing model for the day, we did lots of different shoots of stereotypes from each country. She did, England, France, Italy, Japan and Australia. Here are a few silly (unedited) ones from each shoot:

 I am minging

Today

Today when I have listened to this song a lot, running to it in the gym is very relaxing, and while doing tedious, boring work.

Another good point in my day is my new purchases. I went to the 20% student lock in, in topshop and got some new lovely knickers, a new bandeau and an amazing mustache ring.

This is me wearing my new ring! Happy Bunny.

Artistique

Back to Uni, and I have finally found a module I can really get stuck in to on my course.

I am designing a fashion magazine, using images found on the internet and in magazines and books.

 I am creating a high end fashion magazine targeting late teens, to early twenties. Basically my age, and what i like.

I will be using resources such as;

Blogs

Whitezine

Lookbook

Photographers

Magazine archives 

and my friends to take a few pictures of my own for extra brownie points.

Being creative makes me happy. Essays do not.

Miss Clumsy

Since coming back to University, I have become very clumsy. In the past two weeks i have burnt myself twice, one is very bad and still hasn't healed, obtained six bruises, broken one glass and broken a necklace. A lot of things in my room keep breaking too. I think I am falling apart....

I love summer days....

My favorite boy